'twinkle twinkle little star'

The concept of stars is a true reflection of humans.
When you gaze at stars and they twinkle, you cannot help but think 'stars are so beautiful' little do we consider that up close, they are fiery, raging balls of gas that wouldn't be 'so beautiful'. I feel as though the same thing can be seen in people. But instead of millions if not billions of kilometres between you and them, their façade is the thing that stops us from seeing the truth. People wear smiles and look 'so beautiful' but inside, they are sad or angry or lost. Stars are deceptive parts of nature. We only see and probably only ever will see the little 'twinkle twinkle little star' in the sky. I feel as though this is why we lose people emotionally. Because whilst stars perhaps feel undermined by us (metaphorically of course) - Maybe people want us to see through their barrier at their real pain?

Change happens when someone sees the first step

I'm not expecting you to read this and for it to change your life nor am I writing this for any other reason but to get my thoughts out and see what you guys think in relation to the subject.

The last few days, I have been thinking heaps about what dreams, hopes and aspirations I had as a child. I remember that I always had a weird way of choosing my future occupations.

I never aspired to be a 'princess' as Sarah means 'princess' and therefore I always regarded myself as one but when I was really little, I wanted to be a teacher. I think the core reason for this was solely because it was the first job I was ever aware of as I saw at least one almost everyday of my life after the age of 5. The second dream job I had was to be a psychologist. I think my heart was with helping people at the time (until every bitch in da hood started pissing me off. I honestly don't know how one can sit in a room and listen to other people complaining to them all day). my third job dream was definitely a flight attendant. There was such a huge novelty about jumping on a plane looking hot and pointing at the doors until someone told me 'There just a glorified waitress and you'd be wasting your life'. The words wasting your life are the reason that dream crashed pretty heavily. That's always been my worst nightmare. Wasting my life. I finally became content with a future career in year 6 and that was to become a nurse.

There's one constant in all these dreams (except the flight attendant haha) and that was 'make a difference'

Ever since I was little, I've wanted to change the world. I've wanted to do something that can really alter peoples perception on something or that can change peoples lives. I want to end world poverty, I want to give everybody a place they can call home and someone they can say loves them. I WANT TO CHANGE THE WORLD.

I sat in class the other day, staring out the window wondering what people who have infact changed the world were doing at my age. I always hear really inspirational stories. There's 2 that i remember quite strongly. A 9 year old boy who raised an incredible amount of money to purchase and build wells in africa and a 19 year old girl who started an orphanage for 17 children in uganda. I just wonder, obviously i'm a little past 9 but what was the girl doing at my age?

the majority of the population live in their own world. They work, they love their friends and family, they live for themselves and a closed off group of people. So what makes me any different from them? what makes my future any different from theirs. Will I be a part of the minority who does infact change the world and make a difference?