I'm not usually one to complain; just kidding, I complain all the time but it feels like the past few months have been a mixture of hell and happiness. I usually despise people who, only one month into the year, make a prediction on how the rest of the year is going to be according to how good or bad January has been. However; right now, it's all I seem to be doing. Ever since leaving school, I've been riding one of the most intense and crazy emotional roller coasters possible.
Honestly, even just sitting here trying to work out how to write it makes me emotional because it has been one of the most overwhelming periods of time in a very very long time.
So I finished school about mid November, 2 weeks after turning 18 and getting my drivers license. Quickly left for schoolies in Bali. It was seriously amazing. One of the top ten experiences in my life. Shortly after returning, we received our ATARs, which to put simply, was truly a horrible experience. On Christmas Eve, the car I had been driving was suddenly taken away from me because my older step sister needed a car and as the car was her mums, it was given to her. Then, I went camping over NYE and it was incredible. So much fun, words cannot describe it. After coming home from that and just have a couple of weeks to hang out and see friends, drive up to Sydney with my dad and back, life was looking up. In the meantime, I had found a place in Bundoora to move into, as La Trobe was the university I was sure I was going to get into because the course I had chosen was 10 points under my ATAR. I had also arranged a transfer with work.
Then, uni preferences came out and I got into Deakin which is in Burwood. So I no longer had a place to live or a job to move to.
So, all this happened. This continuance of something going wrong and then me having to make a back up plan and then that going wrong to. In addition to all this, I don't know if anyone has experienced it but having your license, a social life and no car is possibly one of the hardest, most emotionally frustrating things in the world.
Anyway, about two weeks ago, I got kicked out of home because of my rude as fuck step mum always getting her way. Tonight was the first night I had spent with them for my older step brothers birthday since being kicked out. My step brother also got his car today, which he paid for with inheritance (where as I had to work for my money for my car and the only reason I don't have one is because no one is around to help me find one and everyone I've looked at has been awful) and his dad picked the car out for him. Ontop of this, he has had his license for a month less than me, failed 4 times and since having his license, already swerved the car onto the other side of the road on a freeway and crashed a car.
So that really set me off tonight as everybody was 'wow-ing' over his new car and how perfect it was and my step sister driving off in the car that I deserved.
There is so much more to the story but I think this is adequate for now
I don't really know what to say. Sorry I've been slack with posting, it's just been a really intense few months. I just wanted to fill errybody in. So whatever.
